all i did this year was get more gay

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The thing about being fat is you know that’s the first thing anyone ever notices about you. It’s kinda like missing an eye or something, like no matter where you are or what you do their first thought is going to be “she/he doesn’t have an eye”, they’re not going to notice how clear your skin is or the outfit your wearing until they’ve fully taken in the fact that you take up more space than people they find to be attractive. When I think about that sometimes it’s hard to keep going with my life, sometimes all I wanna do is just sit in the dark where no one can look at me. But in the end I turn the light on and go outside because i know I have to keep living, I know I can’t let the fact that people find me disgusting or untouchable just because I’m fat keep me from doing things.

So how do I get over this? How do I keep myself believing i’m not just a waste of space?? I don’t really know. Yes i’m losing weight, I found a diet that finally reverses my pcos but it’s not happening overnight. Even if I wish this was true, I’m not going to be the hottest person in the world when I into a size 8 instead of 18. I don’t know what I’m getting at here. I just know It’s hard not to get wrapped up in the unfairness of it all because I’m surrounded by teenagers who eat twice as much as I do and they’re twice as skinny as I am, and then they tell me I just need to eat less and exercise more when I’m already running laps around them. 

And I love myself, at least I did. I loved myself a week ago but I don’t know how I feel right now.



i spelled captain wrong in my post earlier and i am deeply ashamed 

Anonymous said: I couldn't tell if you were being sarcastic or not... But that's like when a plane gets hijacked...

I said:

but why tha fuck he gotta announce he aint the captain like tht 

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rawrrrritsjamesdawg said: Hey, I think the "This isn't your captain speaking." Is supposed to relate to terrorism and hijacking or planes xD

I said:

still don’t kno why tha fuk he gotta say it like that then

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girls are so hot???? like i see a hot girl every 2 seconds.  and a hot guy about every 2 weeks.  and even then i’m wary because he might end up yelling something rude at me or making a rape joke or something

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